there're a few pictures i fell in love with already.
a few i might wanna burn.
a few imight jus wan to bury now.
a few i wanna tear.
so i'm preparing myself to lose a friend.
not to something better.
but something stupid.
but why am i preparing?
i dun think i can ever lag behind anymore.
i dun want to leave anyone behind. but i guess the choice is not mine.
i was cursed with a longer left leg.
2.3cm longer at the hip..
another 2cm at the ankle..
so how do i play soccer?
do i jus run and cross?
should i push myself more then?
it's funny i have a blog yet i'm afraid of saying some stuff?
i jus had a double crossing friend in SP.
we were supposed to do the retest together?
he told the lecturer i cant make it and pushed it earlier?
and jus that his conduct is better than mine, that scumforlabitch decided that his words carried more weight.
damn i'm screwed.
badly.
then i have another prob.
she's pregnant? or jus fat?
she wouldnt tell me.
she jus dun dare to look at me.
she is scared cos she disappointed me?
all the words of not clubbing till late without a guy friend.
dun it rubbed in now?
what can i do?
CHURCH CHURCH CHURCH!
how? cells die cos of planning. worse come to worse, i'm losing my ability.
whatever's happening isnt giving me any motivation.
i cannot run this thing alone.
nor can i plan everything alone.
but i cant give everything i can either.
what should i do?
doesnt anyone know that it's so difficult trying to be a BROTHER, FRIEND, SOMEONE SPECIAL, and a LEADER at the sam time?
i wan to run, run run, run run run.
but i'm not irresponsible.
Certain situations, I’m not equipped to handle myself
Well even sometimes I, could use some divine help
Now I can go and handle things in my old way
But are they right for you Lord, and do they show Your grace?
Show me Your way, the way to do things, that glorify Your name
Jesus, show me Your way, open my eyes and show me Your way.
All my life I’ve done everything, according to my will
Never quite understanding, why it‘d leave me unfulfilled
So I ask you Jesus, so many times You’ve seen me fall
Wont’cha help me turn the other cheek when my back’s up against the wall