i am pissed.
of what?
not some random thing.
i'm pissed cos i always try so hard.
pissed because i dun see results.
pissed because not everything is working out.
my own objective this year for my ROLES!
to make sure our youths are closer than anytime before.
it isnt working out so far.
it's the second MONTH!
i want us to grow.
in numbers, in faith, in trust.
not diminish.
i'm sad some ppl think of leaving.
i'm annoyed some leave and take ppl along.
i'm pissed some leave and nv say bye.
but i'm happy cos the rest chose to stay.
i have visions.
aims.
targets.
dreams.
that not everyone dare to have.
i want ppl in SEA to know us?
( like that will happen? )
i want ppl in the states to know us.
i want the world to know us.
and they say, if you dream, go with all my heart.
yes.
i'm doing that.
but anyone lending me a hand?
we have talents.
skills.
we can sing.
play.
shout.
draw.
act.
but we jus merge our talents.
i think it's time to stop thinking abt commitment.
cos it has nv crossed my mind for the past 10 years.
and i dun think i should make it an issue for myself.
well, i cant leave the servers even if i want to.
( i'll be a sunday catholic too easily.)
i have so much more to give.
and i want to contribute.
i'm happy with the ppl i work with.
youths, adults alike.
and i talk abt you.
i assumed many things.
but i always try to make it better.
which bring me to paragraph one.
( read first paragraph. )
hell yeah.
phew!
it feels good.
to vent my frustration.
not on ppl.
but on you my dear blog.
hahahha!
it feels good.
to speak my mind.
no matter how hard it is to try.
it feels good.
to sing a little song.
ahahhaa!
damn i'm smiling now.
GRINS~!
i dunno if i've taken this special interest in this someone.
the phones jus keep ringing.
and i feel sorry.
ahhahaha!
mayb it's for a short period?
mayb it wont last long.
it's a long time since that feeling came.
the yearning of someone's voice.
BLEH!
YOU NV SEE LOVE IN HIM/HER.
COS YOU PICK ON HIS/HER FAULTS.
YOU NV SEE THE GOOD THINGS YOUR ENEMY DOES.
COS YOU REMEMBER THE BAD THINGS HE/SHE DOES.
SO YOU'LL NV SEE LOVE IN ME.
BECAUSE.
YOU NV LOOK BEYOND THE CROSS.
i wonder which guy came up with that?
though it's kinda weird trying to read it?
somethings telling me it makes sense.
HAAAS!
TO INFINITY & BEYOND!